jazzi bean

I am mad i am confused i am pissed i feel sick to my freakin stomach. I hate the thought of leaving my friends. I hate the thought of making complete new ones. I hate learning my way around a new nieghborhood. i hate the fact that i have unknowingly been wasting my last few  weeks at craig. i hate my parents for thinking i am drama queen even though i have to leave behind best friends, good friends, guy friends, crushes, and seven years of amazing memories. I have to start all over again. Be that new kid that knows absolutely nobody. Sit in silence all day long.  i also hate that gut wrenching you get when you feel you are doing something absolutely wrong, not shedding a tear in front of anyone. in thier eyes i am a warrior but in my eyes i am just a measly mouse that watches and lets watever happen cause i cant do anything bout it. the thing i hate the most is letting all of this really get to me. Crying my self to sleep everynight cause of loss of hope. I need to wipe the tears frommy eyes and start a brand new beginnning